[10] I SHOULDNT OF F*CKED HER

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[Episode 1]
You ever was dealing with somebody that you shouldnt of been dealing with?
I had a problem a couple of times. Whether it was a friends friend, a babymother of someone i knew, or just even somegirl that had a man. In this world we like playing with fire. Sometime the best times or best sex or even best conversations are with someone you shouldnt even have business with. The problem is nobody can fuck just once and leave them alone, or have a long conversation on the phone knowing you want more conversation. When in reality if it shouldnt of happened, dont let it happen more than once, and thats where it all goes wrong.

I was dealing with this female, now what doesnt matter is how serious it was or what it was. The female lets just call her ney. Ney was younger than me, use to go to school with me, bottom line i knew her before i knew the girl i was dealing with. Lets call her jane. I didnt know Jane & Ney had a invisible beef for one another. Little background info i was attracted to ney, but more importantly i was sexually attracted and i heard about her in highschool, so i kind of had high expectations. So me and ney would conversate lightly on FB, she would hit me lightly. Gave her my aim, and she would hit me there lightly. Aim got kind of sexual im's. I didnt even want to get this far, i knew i was playing with hot fire because i said i wouldnt deal with anyone that reside close to my ex(out of respect) even when me and my ex wasnt talking. In the mist of me and Jane kind falling off, she hits me randomly saying she heard i was conversating with Ney. I have no idea but i put it together and it was my motto that happened. And that is "b*tches talk too much". No disrespect to ladies but its said better that way due to why some ladies just talk for no reason when nothing is going on. Then is when she told me that she kind of had beef with her. I told her i knew ney even before i knew you, so why i have to stop because of your mini beef, it wasnt even real beef and more importantly we wasnt even talking.

So i wasnt talking to Jane at this time. Ney had a good talk game. Fellas you know, those females that try to get your attention with nasty talk or they can do this or they can do that, that makes you curious. I would never forget one convo we had. I respected her G for this. She had a sex tape that was released in HS with her boyfriend at this time. She told me she knew he leaked it and didnt even care. Now i remember this tape was big back then. Nobody was doing shit like this back then and i remember she didnt even care back then. I still aint see it to this day but shit like that turn me on when females just dont care and take it like a G. So of course we would joke about making a tape and leake it. HA! At this point i knew what i was getting into, i made it straight clear with ney, i wouldnt even reply to regular convos, text, or anything else, i wasnt curious on how many classes she needed to graduate, why you and your man on commercial break, etc. etc. I was just curious on what was behind closed doors so any sex convos i would respond and she knew that. Would always send nasty shit. After a few convos thru text, she was home. I remember I set up a mini date, i was hungry, why not. At food, we finally talked lightly about what we were doing etc. She was looking cute.

After food and drinks, i remember it was pouring, we went back to the place. What was better to do on a pouring friday night. Soon as we got in the room, we wasted no time. Started the kissing the touching the licking the rubbing. One thing i remember from the four play i remember i had high hopes about her head game. I was so dissapointed, i just knew she would be crazy, she complained the whole time, about the pre-cum, she had dry hands and it just wasnt poppin'. I even taught her at the time, it just didnt work. Fuck it! After all the fun play i remember being on top of her pounding her as if i had something to prove. I was stroking so deep grabbing the shit out of her hair, this was a random time a female called me daddy randomly. At that moment i felt like daddy. I cant lie it was good at the time i remember her thighs were on point, i grabbed them as my love handles wow i had her legs on my shoulder pounding. Then as while i was in it, i did started thinkin how bad this is, i knew this would get ugly soon. 20 minutes later i pulled the condem off and pulled out on her stomach. She says "ughhh i hate nut". I knew i wouldnt be dealing with her too much more. **goes to sleep**

So i started conversating with Jane later in the week randomly. So it was a club night and i knew it would be many people there, i really just came to see my artist that i work with perform. And what do you know, both jane and ney were there. Now i was nervous, i knew Jane was crazy in public and i knew she kind of had beef with Ney. So i think Ney had to say something about f*ckin me to her at a distance because i remember a big crowd almost fighting. So Jane comes to me with this "im a kill you" look. Mind you i was barely talking to Jane at this point. I had my friend with me which was 6'6 300+lb. I told him "listen dont let her close to me". Now this was was funniest shit of the night, i was in VIP with him guarding me not letting her around no where near me. She shouted soooo many embarrassing things out that night i could even believe it. At this time i had done so much for her as a friend i was upset but i could see why she may was upset. After the club i had to get escorted out the club because of the scene. 20 minutes later, i just sat in the backseat looking at my sidekick while these niggaz crackin up. I sat quiet but shaking my head thinking "i knew i shouldnt f*cked her it wasnt even worth it"...smh.