"YOUR SON BROKE MY HEART"

"Hey Girrrrl"

"How are you"

"Fine"

"You talk to my son, i have to tell him i saw you"

":-( your son broke my heart"

Well thats what she said and i had no clue. Well to take it back to the beginning i met her when i was in high school. Did she go to my school? No. Wild part about it was she was my substitute teacher for a second. (Now i know all my facebook friends that know me will try to do the investigation) Well it was for a quick second, i always thought she was attracting, not the best but still just had an attracting glow. Years later, I started doing work at a retail store on my first day i bumped into her. Im like "what you doing here" "she like i work here like once a month". Gave me a big hug, and im like wow, she hasnt aged at all. Now shes about 30, her resume at this time, 2 degrees, just moved back from philly doing some masters course at the time.

So i would work with her from time to time, then i remember she her birthday had came up, she kind of pressured me to get her a gift, she did this to the whole store, so im like let me get this girl a card to shut her up. So i got her a card, i was still attracted to her, so i figured i'll start something up to see how she would take it, i told her to call me on a note in the card. I gave to her when i got off.

She called me asap that night. We talked about 20 minutes. "She was like what are you doing flirting with me boy, do you know how i old i am" I say "yeah" "why you called then" she laughs. So we became cool on the phone, she became a good friend actually, she wanted to know all about me, she knew about my goals, she wanted to help me and i really respected her for this. And she would really listen to me, noticed what i like etc. She even bought me random gifts and i would be so shocked. I was overwhelmed, im still in school, my money aint even like that, wtf she wanna help me. So we became very cool. But...............................................

I started noticing she kinda was more liking me more to the fact that she would kiss me after we left, the first time we did, i knew i f*cked up. And this was the time we had asked me like what if we had sex?? I would laugh like "i dont think you ready for a young boy". But i was dead-ass, i knew once we had sex it would be more than what it is because i know me sexually.

Then we started having sex. SMH. I cant lie, it was good. She was a talker though, huge one, i wasnt really use to that, kind of aggressive. But right after our first time having sex i knew this wasnt what i should of done. But she always came at me as if she knew my situation and i was young and she know im not looking for nothing. I guess she fooled me because her feelings grew as into i knew i couldnt really open up on a friendship like i wanted the friendship. So then i began to get distant, i really didnt know what to do at this point i was pretty much being young . Now she was older so she really didnt hawk me like that, something about older woman they can read you good i guess from more experiences. But even at this point, i started realizing and asking myself, the one time when i did want just a friend in her before the physical it didnt happen. So i remember when we fell off, it was kind of beef i guess because she even had her friends delete me off of myspace lol. You know myspace is big. But even to this day it still was a grey area....it wont be the same. I just wanted a close female friend. When communication fails its hard to get it back. Even if she ever reads this she would know how big of friends we were for each other and she probably would agree with me.