DO YOU THINK ABOUT ME?

[EX GIRLFRIEND & WOMEN FRIEND- CONFESSIONS]

50 CENT has a song on his new album which is called "Do you think about me". He vents on it basically. The song has a strong vibe to it, and it made me kind of feel some type of way. I started thinking about many of my past women i hurt, put in situations that they never knew about, my ex that i was with for the longest of my life, women that i had the best friendships with that was just not there anymore. This is one of those situations where "life really does go on". I move on and im sure they move on with their life. But you always wonder was your mark in their life really that strong? or not? Do they really think about me? at all?

"God damn girl, we use to be friends"-50 cent

This subject can be very sensual to some people. Its strong for me. Sometimes you really think people will always be in your life. Sometimes you think that your place in other women life is permanent or your mark was strong enough that they will always remember you. This is definitely not promised. I just be wondering do they really think about me? Do you remember all the good times we had. My thing is when women move on due to a bad situation, they tend to only focus on the negative things:

"I cant believe you fucked her"

"I cant believe you lied to me"

"I wish i would of knew before i got into this with you"

But all of this change once you lose him. Like i be saying what if i die tomorrow? Then this is the time that when you want to apologize for rejecting me after what i've done? Is that when you want to tell your friends about all the good times we had? times we had? Women hold strong grudges and really focus on the negative things when the friendship/relationship is over.

Some women focus on trying to retaliate and show off that they moved on in the public light. Im sure 90% of my ex's old flings will soon read this, please be clear "i 100%ly dont care who you are dating, seeing, fucking etc". My best hopes go out to you and your future. Im saying this because, dont spend your time finding a way so i can hear about this. I had my good times with you. I shared nice evenings etc and i moved on. Just dont dwell on negativity and when im gone you will realize that it wasnt that serious to keep being mad at the same stuff when clearly we moved on.

Now i know, whatever i've done to ruin any relationship i had is my fault. But i never been the type to f*ck random one night stands and never speak to a woman again. In other words if i gave you the time and day to even bring you out on a date, go out with you, bring you to my crib, introduce you to my moms or anything, lets just say you obviously was on my winning team and you wasnt just an associate.

Reason i zoned out to this topic and especially the song, is because i changed alot of women life. I introduced the nighlife to alot of my past who never even experienced bottle service before, introduced casino night life, some would of never knew about a myspace, facebook. I even put women up on quick hustles on how to make a quick 2 or 3 g's, and most importantly introduced a different sex style/life that was never experienced with some women at the time. There just too many ways where i had to be special in different lives. I think the women in my life from the past would know if they were special in my life or still. So i know that even if its the slightest thought from when we would share buffalo burners or 7AM quickies to random dc trips, i just feel it would hard to not think about me. But then again there are women who has moved on, married, and just needed to "x" me out of there life-log. I cant be mad at them, i do think about any women i've had atleast once. I even think about the ones i just kissed once, the ones that may have only cooked for me once, the ones that took me out just once, shit even the pretty ones that gave me their numbers that i just never called. I guess thats me, i think alot, i have alot of random thoughts. Do i miss them? I dont know. Maybe. Maybe some. Some i dont.

"I know you think about me..

you were so special to me...

BUT do you think about me"

DO YOU WONDER IF YOUR PAST THINKS ABOUT YOU??